privacy and what comes with it

When i chose to be discreet, i would really appreciate if you stop asking questions.. and when i said i need privacy, i'm more than happy if you would respect my space..

I don't need a CIA or SB to monitor my emails and check my call registers.. and sneak a peek at my messenger list.or my laptop screen. or myplaylist..which is full of Paramore and Muse and aah~ lagho~because i never do that to people.. i would really expect the same from others.. respect my space please~.. it's not that i'm mad or something.. but.. it's not very comfortable.. i have my reasons for keeping a lot of things to myself.. simple2 thing could turn into a massive fitnah if you know what i mean.. i lost a friend along the way.. and i don't want to repeat it... when i'm not ready to share with the world.. i AM not ready..

It's about respecting others.. if only we could learn how far we can get into peoples' life..the limits that we must set for someone to enter your private life, then everything would be okay. This post is going to be a long one. Stay with me.


Lately, i don't share things with people.. even closest friend.. not even you dear (kautsar) sorry.. not quite the right time.. i've been keeping loads of things in my mind.. my fear.. my anger.. even my tears.. everytime i cracked over something, i just sleep and if worst, i just cried behind the comforter they don't call it comforter for nothing u noe~

I'm just not the old me anymore.. i hide my emotions.. but it doesn't mean i don't have one... I need my space to be respected.. that's all i'm asking.. please... please.. have trust in me.. my life is not as enjoyable as it might seems.. go stalk someone else~

Read between the lines.. if i didn't say no.. doesn't mean i approve it.. you should know by yourself.. we all have boundaries, i need mine.. i don't think i need to build a wall.. we have our own rationality.. think about this.. don't do thing you don't like to others... and we all will be fine..

I learnt a lot of things regarding life. One of them is.. when you exposed too much about yourself, your emotions.. people tend to judge you.. they try to justify every act that you did.. sorry..I'm the kind of person who don't like to be prejudged... my judgements are far differs from you...

So your evaluations are not on flat ground, humans' thought are often bias and unwise.. sorry...sorry.. please let it go.. please let ME go..

I don't need that judgement looks on your faces to make me feel bad.. i AM already bad.. but i'm still rational.. thanks for your concern tho..

my life is completely undercontrol even tho mate dah bengkak2 dua tiga hari ni.. tido x ikut masa.. nanges sana sini.. ah elmo lah kau~ NAK BALIK.. kat umah i'm free to do anything without risau someone stalking on me... lalalala~


btw.. why i prefer using english? b'coz u can say a lot of emo stuff and people would have to think to judge them.. huhu... if i use BM.. it would be straight forward.. and people read and judge...


please read, understand, judge...



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