slumber party~

idea atiqah

misi belum diketahui..tho icecream was going to be served i smelled fishy.. was it yuuno's?

makanan = ice cream

tempoh 745-900

mari meriahkan majlis..

p/s= did anyone told you that you look fab in pink? so, wear one.. whoever wears pink got to be one of my clans that night.. how cool is that?

wakakaka~

moodswings are getting worst than ever.. grrrr.. give me a head to knock out~!

who ever editted this pic was surely great~ condominium like turned apartment murah.. gudjob ah~

seryesly i think you are a jerk!

no word is best to describe how i disguise you now.. you are --------- annoying giler~..

fool.stop.

k.e.c.e.w.a. T_T

usaha x berapa mantap.. tapi study siang malam.. baca 4 kali baca dah.. tulis 3 kali tulis jgk... tapi.. x ingat2 jgk.. bilalah agaknya nk jumpa teknik study berkesan.. arghh.. sy benci sungguh lah perasaan ini.. tawakal selepas berusaha adalah yg terbaik.. tapi x bleh elak punyalah kecewa sbb dah buat sungguh-sungguh tapi rezeki bukan milik sy.. mereka yg cincai2 pon mantap.. what about me??

~dipandang rendah kawan baik sendiri..
~tak dapat jawab dgn baik walaupun study 2 kali ganda yg mid year..
macam mn nak tak frust?
study mcm mn baru nak mantap?
:((


apa lagi yg kurang ek?
..................

ya! kebergantungan pada ALLAH..

girls day out!

anah bercenkerangrama dgn syak~

picnic panas~ takyah buat BBQ dh..

baby shin goon pon datang~ silap yuuno tak join skali.. hihi

ajk2 hadiah yg "busy"




tgk2~ panas sampai gelap! T_T!~

And we thought it was a spring day out~ but it turned out to be SUMMER HEAT!~
sumpah! mmg panas sangat wey.. couldn't bring myself to think that we played in the heat.. never ever in my life i had seen sooooo many people in one place.. sesak giler~ derang tgh sambut shamun naseem lebih kurang mcm easter holiday lah! wat eva~ senang citer tak best lah spring kat sini.. dh la panas.. bunga pon takde sangat (terbakar dek matahari dah kot~ ) nk spring kat Europe lah~

Ingatkan best lah berkelah2.. but i end up terbaring kat katil sampai asar lepas balik tu.. penat.. dehydrated.. sumer ade.. tekak pon kering dek gaduh dgn bdk2 arab yg x makan saman...

uii~ sedih giler kot.. pepagi buta dh bangun goreng popcorn.. tgn terbakar kena gula hangus.. (kurang dh seribu T_T) jatuh plak dkat washing machine .. air basuhan baju sendiri kot~ (makan tuan punya baju! ) mmg bernasib malang hari tersebut~

Muka burn takyah cakap.. blemishes sini sana.. balik kelas kesat airmata.. tak tahan perit panas.. dgn masalah kulit kat muka.. kering megelupas bintik2 merah lagi.. aiyaaa.. ni belum masuk mid summer lagi.. klau dh summer ni alamat nya membakar lah jwbnya...nk letak tangan kat luar pun takut.. haish.. dkat padang masyar matahari sejengkal atas kepala.. subahanallah~ tapi........


aduh.. seryesly takmow jejak kaki kat mesia dgn kulit bermasalah ini!!!!




kanak-kanak riang baru sampai hadiqah dawliyah






arghhh! tensiontension..





lusa exam physiology lagi.. cepatlah habis lectures.. malas keluar rumah dh.. duduk diam2 dalam rumah sambil ubatkan kulit muka~


~ ya Allah permudahkanlah~

when there is nothing..

when there is nothing...

sure there will be something...

sometimes you want everything..

but Allah will give you anything..

that means more than everything~

:)

alhamdulillah. my practical Physiology went extremely well.. I got the easiest question set and also non'malignant' examiner.. she was totally awesome! she didn't even ask me extra questions.. just record the value and said excellent and I'M DONE!

huhu *jumpjumphappy* surely, thanks to my family and dearest friends for your prayers and support..

I dunno wut to write anymore.. relieved and happy is all I can say..

alhamdulillah... alhamdulillah~

btw.. tomorrow would be our girls day out.. it's spring time! we're going to go to hadiqah dawli.. and enjoy the spring season while it is still here!! then it'll be sizzling hot summer time~ ouch! I'm going to pop-some-corn lah for tomorrow.. jomjom goreng popcorn

ha-ha-ha

Today is my totally happy day lah~i did well in my practical exam and my brother got the interview for ALAM.. I'm so enthusiastic!

I feel like I'd like to do researchs for him.. I'd like to go to accompany him on that day~ wahh.. it seems like forever I ever went for an interview.. excitedexcitedexcited

sujud syukur lah semua org~

maw tukar layout lah lepas ni.. sempena spring~ kehkehkeh.. klau rajen lah

tawakal

Berubah

Berubahkah aku hanya bila ada sesuatu

Terus aku pulang pada sikap sebelum ku berubah

Hanya sekedar sesuatu tak berapa lama pun itu

Jarang ku terendap dalam sikap dimana ku berubah

Tuhan aku hanya manusia

Mudah berubah lagi dalam sekejap

Tuhan aku ingin berubah

Dan ku

bertahan dalam perubahanku

-edcoustic-

~scheduled posting~

19 april 2009

Final exam practical physiology..

Physiology = subjek paling mudah difahami tapi paling payah nk score (paradox??)

killer subjek tahun 1 dan 2 menurut Kakak2 senior.. somehow I agree to that..

risau.. sngat risau.. cardiology tunggang terbalik.. ECG reading ke langit ke tujuh dah

masa Mid Year, paper Physiology agak power la compared to 3 lg subjek.. tapiiiii...........

Final bukan setakat 3 helai MCQ and fill in the blanks.. essay tuh!

rasa macam muka dah takde blood.. nervousa~

*pejam mata rapat.. doa-doa*

Ya Allah permudahkan lah.. semoga dapat Examiner yg chap-chap soi je (ayat Mr Wong~)

ameeeeeen

p/s= mama baba bang ngah acik kakak syifa doakan Along.. final dh kott~

peringatan

" ...aku tidak mahu berpaling, pada yg mengganggu dan mengugat..

dipangku wajah yg layu.. dan aku telah jemu..."

-inteam-

14 April 2009..petanda ke 12...

-klau sy berasa jelik melihat kemungkaran org lain.. mengapa tidak sy?-

serasa sy.. mungkin slps ni makin kurang post dalam blog ni. stop kejap.. memberi fokus utama pd keutamaan.. kurangkan online.. kurangkan facebook.. kurangkan lagho tgk youtube.. kurang2!~

jadi awal2 lagi sy memohon maaf klau sy bakal kurang available nnt.. usaha perlu diganda.. masa langsung takda.. klau rs2 teringat tu.. msg2 jelaa ek :P

seminggu ni sy kurang tenang.. bnyk masalah timbul.. sy yg cari pon masalah tu..klau bleh diselesaikan.. awal2 lagi sy dh tolak ketepi... tp bila melibatkan soal manusia.. hati jd tenat.. sesak dgn mcm2 ragam... punyalah susah nk estimate hati org.. sedang hati sendiri pon parah..

(amaran! post ini mungkin panjang.. sila abaikan jika anda kesuntukan waktu..)

Entahlah.. semakin sy menjauh.. semakin ia dtg mendekat.. makin lama makin kusut.. tp sy nekad.. apapa pon suma ni mesti ditangguh sampai tamat bulan 6.. sy ada masa 3 bulan dirumah nk melayan masalah2 ni.. (by that time i really hope all these could be settled itself) tolak jauh-jauh..

Macam2 sy nak tulis.. lepas geram sbb lepas ni tanak tgk dh pon blog ni kejap.. just weekend je nk lapangkan masa jap menulis.. sy nak sngt2 tukar layout blog ni.. tp melilau-lilau cari layout best.. langsung takde yg melekat dihati.. agakny dah jatuh cinta dgn layout biru ni... menenangkan hati kala sy geram2.. banyak kenangan layout ni.. walaupon tak semuanya manis.. tp sy gembira.. pengalaman mematangkn sy..(jgn memain.. layout pun ade sejarah wooo)

Sejarah mungkin berulang, tapi sy tak akn benarkan.. cukuplah apa yg pernah jadi dulu.. sy malas.. isu2 panas~ sy ni suka sangat buat kontrovesi.. tapi cukuplah cerita lama.. sy letih nak layan.. penat dgn karenah manusia.. selalu ulang ayat pujuk diri sendiri.. jgn geram dgn mahkluk Allah.. klau geram tu maknanya tak puas hati dgn Penciptanya jugaklah.. berlapang dada..

Sy rs sy pon tak layak dpt keredhaan manusia pon.. berkali-kali kena tegur.. baru teguran manusia..sy dh jadi sngt down.. tak sedar pulak Pemilik sy menegur sy berkali-kali.. DIA berbicara dgn sy.. kdg-kdg sy tak perlu mintak.. dalam helaian mushaf terjawab.. terkedu sbb kdg2 terlalu accurate.. syukur.. belum dilupakanNYA.. walaupun entah berapa kali sy mungkir janji sendiri.. T_T

sy rasa sy insan lemah.. manusia yg selalu lupa.. diperhatikan..dinilai.. setiap hari..

petanda ke 12

surah al-araaf-ayat 179~

peringatan telah sampai kepada sy.. JOM berubah dan mendengar

enigmatic

State Of Confusion
Originally uploaded by creativefi

.. I don't want to be an enigma.. though.. i don't undertstand why we should be one... it's really hard to read between the lines.. if you could understand me.. then you should know.. being the one left in the dark was not amusing at all..

When everything was like a sudoku game..ok.. maybe not sudoku (coz in the end, you could solve it anyway) it's like a stupid riddle.. where you can never guess the answers.. all your life what you could do was just making plain guesses.. and be puzzled about almost everything..

I don't like this.. I hope I'm not repeating history.. being hurt again and again was endless misery.. maybe I'm wrong again..and I had to live with it.. or maybe I'm close to right.. but I'll never know.. for now, I don't want to know anything... nor being bothered to even seek for answers... the truth is I'm so scared.. I don't want to be hurted again..

I don't want to make the same thing to other people..cause I just hate it when people did that to me... but it seems like I'm the enigmatic one here.. am I being so to you? I'm so sorry..
I didn't do that on purpose.. I cleared things out for many peoples.. and keep on blaming and laughing each time.. things shouldn't be that hard... Truth will fix everything.. but now.. I can't say that either.. hurmmm...

"...I'm just a bit caught in the middle,
life is a maze, and love is a riddle..."
- Lenka


Fire and Ice

SOME say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I’ve tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To know that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

-Robert Frost-


peninpeninpeninpeninpenin ok cukup!

saya tak mahu tahu jawapannya lagi..

fear of God and rejection

Sejuta Harapan...

Sejuta harapan

Yang aku sandarkan

Seberkas cahayaMu

Untuk terangi jalanku

Tanpa rahmat ampunMu

Tanpa kasih sayangMu

Hampa terasa hidupku

Ku ingin bersamaMu

Dekat selalu denganMu

Bahagia bersamaMu

Ya Allah

Terangilah gelap hitam hatiku

Ya Allah

Sucikanlah hati ikhlas untukMu

Rahmat ujian

Anah bermuka bangga akibat mendapat bonus jd promoter kedai..

Semalam pergi bershopping di Husen.. mula2 ade lah sedikit cuak dihati... almaklumlah belum sampai sebulan kot.. Husen dibom.. tp dek nk membeli souvenirs, keraskn hati.. tp langkah berjaga-jaga kena jgk diambil..telefon muysrif bertugas.. MAd.. dy pon angkutlah geng2 skuad escort dy.. huhu.. mmg keje "best"lah klau teman pompuan shopping.. klau balik umah x sakit kaki.. jawabnya tobat sakit hati kan? kan?lame gile kot, kat satu2 kedai.. nk tawar-menawar pny seksa.. asek kena kapak je..mentang2 muka x arab~ (pehh..ade muka cine ke ak nih??) btw..gaduh jgk dgn pak2 arab tu.. ingat sy buta ckp arab sngt??.. bantai jela ape yg tawu.. silap besar tak bwk akak2 dirasat. bleh murah lagi kot..

Nk dijadikan cerita..jalan punya jalan, kitorg jumpa tauke kedai ni baik sgt dgn Anah.. mengaku jd adek Anah dpt murah.. namany Pedro.. org mexico kott.. tp ckp arab macam air..baikk sngt2.. dy suh kitaorg lepak2 dlm kedai dy, beli barang dy pon murah sngt.. lame gile kitorg kat kedai dy.. yg musyrif kamidibiar kat luar bersama barang2.. (aii.. bleh kena report kat JAKSI ni.. akhawat buli musyrif?)

Ade dua org ahli rombongan kami ke Husen tu kena rompak.. beg ditoreh pastu diseluk amek dompet.. seram giler~ mmg tak sedar.. org plk ramai2mmg langsung tak sedar.. mujurlah dh abes shopping, duit pon dh tak bnyk.. sedih plk tgk beg Sarah yg chantek tu bertoreh.. simpan wat kenangan jelaa..kenangan Pak Arab otak bijak pro pencuri...

Kat Mesir ni nak hidup... mesti pandai berdikarilaa.. td dgr taklimat keselamatan dr Dr Haikal.. tersentuh plk hati.. ade jgk orang kisah kami kat sini.. (Paiq!! ade yg kesah Paiq~) "Akhawat2 adalah tanggungjawab PERUBATAN.. adalah WAJIB bg pihak berkenaan mengambil tahu hal2 Akhawat..apape hal contact sy.. atau JAKSI" sengih jela kitorg td..nk beli minyak pon bleh suruh musyrif?? Iklan KEMPEN MARI BERMUSYRIF Atiqah berjaya nmpknya..

Ntahla.. sy no comment ttg isu ni.. bagus lah klau ade yg peduli.. sy sedih tgk kwn2 asek kena ganggu dgn Arab yg tak berhikmah ni..sangat dahsyat kot kena..14 kes dlm seminggu..sy sendiri dh amek langkah berjaga2..x keluar mlm dh.. x buat2 brani sorang.. tgh kelam kabut isu keselamatan akhawat.. tup-tup ade plk usulkan suruh kawen..adoii... ape kes lah? klau kawen pon selesai ke masalah?.. dy jaga isteri dy jelaa.. abes tu akhawat yg lain? Tp best jgk klau ade ikhwah dalam imarah ni.. at least dpt bawwab free~ngeh..ngeh.. selamat rumah kitorg.. Beit Nuha perintis laa.. tukar jd Beit Ikhwah.. amcam?

Pedro yg baik hati.. mahu borong kedai dy sekalilah nnt!

jadi pelancong kejap.. naseb baik gap exam lame.. sempat ak melencong~

***

amek blood pressure tp tak dgr ape pon.. blurr dek Sarah gelak kuat2..

test practical physiology is coming~ adoii.. dgn gaya cuak2 masa conduct eksperimen Biochem aritu (tangan mengigil tuang solution.. naseb baik tak melecur kena sulphuric acid).. mcm mn nk wat blood test dgn blood pressure dkat org???kang tak pasal2 heart attack lecturer tu.. bagitaw kat dia bacaan salah.. siap bleh diagnose dy ada hypertension lagi.. so dok practise sorang2~practise wat blood pressure test kat diri sendiri.. reading = 90/60 rendah sangat kott... patut asek saket kepala jek.. plus letih melampau~ haish..

rahmat ujian..

Allah maha adil.. sy yg sentiasa tension ni ada b/p rendah..so bila sy tension, sihat sket.. naik b/p sampai 180.. note utk diri sendiri.. kerap-keraplah naik angin = sihat sejahtera.. ameeen..LoLz~!

craving for something sweet~

akan serbu ini dahulu.. bila balik nnt takkiratakira nk jgk!

2,3 hari ni kepala mcm tak betul sket..mcm harihari je kepala aku tak betul??~.. huih.. dilarang menemplak diri sendiri~.... I'm ok what... leading life as what I am.... It's been a week.. asek senyum2 je.. takmaw marahmarah... tak caya?? tanya my housemate k... I've been acting really good.. thumb's up for me..... org wat naya pon rilek jew~ kena marah senyum plk balas.. mmg A1 lah for anger management kali ni*clapclap*

Tp despite of my endless effort to become a sweet gurl.. I got this weird craving for sweet stuff... adoiyai.. sanggup kuar ptg2 nk beli kunafah bil krimah (manisan arab yg sangat best!) hentam pegi beli sekilo.. pastu nyesal, sbb makan sebiji je dh puas hati.. so berkampunglah kunafah2 tu dalam fridge...
then belasah Chocolate coated peanuts... pastu tengah-tengah malam teringin nk makan mint with chochips flavoured Ice Cream! pagi2 nk breakfast Big Apple's donuts... mane nak cari weyy?? mengalahkankan org pregnant!

Seryes, nak sangat33x! but fortunately, this craving last for just about a week... nasib baiklah.. klau tak I may end up hyperglycemic! gilagula tol! but as a goooood insyaAllah medical practitioner, I compensate by drinking loads of water~ ha-ha-ha (bajet sihat)

Bkn tu je cerita pelik tentang sweetness crave... tetiba rs rindu dkt suma org...family of course la my NO 1 list tpny.... tak pasal2 sungguh.. abes ingat even kat pak guard KISAS.. *gelak gulingguling*.... disamping itu, rindu dkt cikgu2 dkt SMKAA.. antar msg kat UST tak dibalas... nk nanges kott~ anak murid kesayangan telah diabaikan ...wuuuuu T_T.. (dh tua2 pon nk manja2 mngader sungguh sy ini)

bkn takat craving for something sweet.. klau someone sweet camne lak?

haha.. gatai na~ (pap! tampar muka sendiri) Adoii.. Kautsar dgn Hani pon busy gila kot study exam masing2 is on the way dah.. huhu.. kita yg dh fly ni lepaklepak jelaa tgk dari jauh jela individu2 yg membusykan diri sambil tersenyum2 (walaupun Final kite esok lusa je pon lagi) rindurindurindu... tak sabar nk balik~

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BTW..pps I got my tickets la sudah~ alhamdulillah...:)))
insyaAllah will be arriving safely, i pray~ at 1415 local time...taksabar nk bau KLIA lagi~
but got 1 major problem.. my next flight to Alor Star would be 8 PM..
what the??... what am I going to do at KLIA lame camtu?... Kautsar dear, will come only after 5PM

jom mintak keje kat Mc D lah! part time 6 jam~.. takkan nk baca buku anatomy lak en??
lalalalalala~


p/s= i'm gonna do some shopping utk org2 mesia.. korang nk ape ek? tolong jgn mintak unta yer.. sbb saya tak pasti emirates ade flight utk haiwan ke tak~
~_~!

exam.. exam.. exam lagi~

APRIL is here~ maka... duka saya bermula-------->

1. 4 april= MCQ test 10 marks conribution for Finals.. Biochemistry DNA
2. 5 april= Cardiovascular Quiz
3. 7 april= Practical Lab Biochemistry Final Exam.planning nk bwk kuali utk test albumin..goreng je bleh x?test tube pecah~
4. 18 april= Practical Lab Physiology Final Exam. aduh.. sphynomanometer dgn stethoscope x beli2 lg~ kantoi!
5. 26 april= Slides and Microcopic Histology Final Exam. dh r mate saket ni.. huhu

Final.. oh Final... kamu buat saya cuak~ saya takut sangat.. tapi juga gembira.. minggu exam masa cepat berlalu.. nk balik tak lama dah... gembira... gembira

oh, ya menjenguk blog kak husna td.. alhamdulillah Allah datangkan penawar hati kedua utk mereka,... Mabruk buat kak Husna & abg Nik... semoga yg kedua ni menjadi penawar hati penghibur duka penyejuk mata kak husna~

Tetiba teringat si kecik2 kat Malaysia (kecik ke? dh sekolah kot.. sepupu2 yg kiut miut tu pon agaknya dah bercakap dh.. adoii.. rindu nk main bdk kecik)

kenapa asyik tringat nma Nur Dhuha? termimpi2... sape dhuha??