lovesickness

Things had been getting out of hands this past two days. Nothing works out for me. I fell sick i mean like-sickening -SICK~ oh. well i must say my sleep schedule went haywire again. I woke up at 3 am morning feeling extremely dizzy and nauseous. I threw up at 10 after struggling to force myself back to bed. I dunno, something has been bothering me. But I can't tell what it is.

I talked to someone this morning, and again.. i found the conversation not very comforting. I got sick thinking on how men and women are weirdly different. And how their act to problems are also different, but yet we found ourselves, sticking and finding soulmate for ourselves. It's like two different poles attracting each other. I've been reading Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus only to find myself in greater confusion.

We want comfort and you want to pull away from us? and how would that work in a real-life relationship? I could only see myself in misery if I would have an uncaring husband who only think about how to make himself happy instead of saving the marriage.

One of my male collegue said to me.. " we guys, will just leave our partner [girl] for quite sometime, let her cry missing us. Then we go back to her." And he call that sweet. Oh well, i got nothing against this unique male policy. But surely no girl would want to handle that. It sounds pretty mean to me. I dunno. But I will totally respect that.

If that is what he wants, then i'm totally okay with it. But please dear, don't blame me if I wouldn't be seeking for you. I'm just giving you some space to breath. I understand how this space is important for you. So don't take me for granted just because of that.

oh.. i'm totally done with all these mushy stuff.