a confession

everything started out easy and happy
but it's getting weird and hard
so weird, that i couldn't picture of what's next
so hard, that i can't think of a perfect ending to this

i miss you
i miss the laughter of stupid jokes that we shared
i miss the i-would-not-mind- waiting- you- to-finish- your- work
and i miss everything about not knowing your thoughts

the not talking but always know the right message
it works like magic

i love the way you work hard for your future
the forever great news you told me
about you
about the life you lead

i couldn't be happy more
and i would always be happy for you

but now i'm not sure what happening between us
remember that i told you that i will always be there for you?

i'm sorry
i'm not chasing you away from me
you don't know how it rages inside me
to see you that far
and not being able to be at times of need

i can't afford the pain anymore
i am not willing to sacrifice this friendship for what i feel.
what will be will be
only God knows that

all i know is i need to be apart from you
cause what hurt the most is being so close
but yet too far away.

i'll miss you forever, friend~