cranky!

I guess by now.. everyone who are close to me knows how sensitive, easily touched and emotional person i am.. yes it's only a few hours after the result announcement, and yet tonnes of people annoyed me.. effing not-cool okayh?!! yes.. i'm at my highly irritable point and you screwed it up? what the?? are u trying to grill me up?

I noe i'm not fit to be a medical student.. and hell yes i know my bars well.. why would you say such things to me.. i did not request to become a malfunctioned EXKISASIAN.. i have no idea you look up so high to us, we're human after all..KISASIAN are not trained cyborg which functions to be tip top student in everything...
and I am so not like the streaming classes student.. I got that message long before you're even born!! so no need to remind me.. of how screwed up individual I AM!! just stop it already..

I am proud of myself.. i survived every hard bumps of my life..and i manage to stand back on my feet after the fall..and.. i noe i did not do well in my first year.. I BLAME myself.. YOU on the other hand have no right to jump infront of me and blame me as well.. got it? NO RIGHT at all..
I am totally frustrated with myself.. and i don't need another reason to be mad to myself anymore.. i noe.. i'm not that great, but i understood it well and trying my best to become one.. so what is your damage??

Speaking of damage.. my Nissan bluebird broke down yesterday.. and i only know that like... TODAY!!!! shoot man! gosh, i was planning to go everywhere with it.. now that mom won't let me touch the new shining Grand Livina..and i doubt my ability to drive an MPV.. urgghhhh.. my car.. why are you soo.. noxious to me.. be nice!!!!! am i suggested to ride a bicycle to Umai's place next week?

Then i got into fight with my bro.. yep, the car thingy again.. he got his bike..just dwell with it... don't touch that car!! and.. what am i supposed to do now? fix the car? if it's like only hundreds i can manage, but thousand.. oh yeah.. little bluebird, you are so going to sleep for good in the garage.. there is no way i'm going to do anything about you now...

And my plan to Langkawi also faced a hault.. and the reunion too.. and u.. what's wrong with us.. i'm back here.. and we were like not talking anymore? husshh.. i hate today very much. hello~ "warm" summer break

tq