I am...

i am...

no one to you

thanks for reminding me of that

thanks also for making me feel that I was someone for you

i am..

drowning in questions

hate living in vagueness..

why don't you just tell me

what is it?!

i'll accept anything

even a big NO

and

i am hating you

for confusing my life..

geez~ thanks a lot!

i am...

learning to be happy..

as much as i needed to cry

but i constrained myself

life was uneasy now

wishing for better days ahead

i am..

finding peace

looking into everything and wishing

to be loved and live it to the fullest..

i am..

alone

with no one..

kautsar! hani!

you don't know how lost i am here..

walk alone to classes..

walk alone on streets..

i now had no one

no one...

i'm lost into tears...

painful as it is

tolonglah... sungguh sedih takda kawan yg boleh share masalah disini.. kautsar~ dimana kamu?

Oh~ begitulah..

Akhirnya! beg sy dh siap jgk... beratnya? aduhai tak terkata.. baru semalam gelakkan org sbb dia kata beg dia takbleh diangkat (huh! padan muka I now~) Sambil kemas2 bilik yg sungguh bersepah tak terkata akibat barang2 yg tak reti2 nk masuk dlm beg.. nk tido just tolak brg2 atas katil ketepi.. seryes! semak~ Tetiba dgr plk lagu raya... menjelang hari raya~( ak dgr menjelang nk fly~ ) dendang perantau la.. apala.. eishh hantu betul TV nih saja je nak emo kan ak.. org sebok kemas umah, sy sebok nk kemas beg.. pilu hati tak terkata..

Bila dh siap keja kemas brg.. dh free la plk.. biskut raya suma dh siap dlm balang.. rumah dh ready.. aiii.. bosan lagi.. nk layan kebosanan, jalan2 kat internet.. confirm takde keja! abes suma blog org redah baca.. buka FS.. hurmm takda apapon.. Myspace? siang2 lagi dh kena delete.. facebook? malas le..nnt2lah~ tgh2 bosan mcm ni rindu plk dkt dia tu.. hurmm tgh wat pe laa.. dh balik umah.. on9 tak penah plk..sy tau kamu busy... I can see that..but.. hey~ sy rindu kamu sgt2 ni.. cepat on9! bnyk nk cerita.. rindu mcm dulu2.. sembang2.. oh~ sy sudah hendak fly.. jgn wat sy sedih rindu kamu~

Internet mlm ni sgtla s.e.n.g.a.l. Feel like talking to someone.. no one is around~ sunyi sekali.. bosan tahap maX..tetiba rasa mcm nk nangis.. owh.. why? Esk laptop akn masuk kedai install Genuine Window.. piracy sungguh menyusahkan.. pegi wat keje halal sket tak bleh ke?! Hati.. jiwa sy sungguh kacau..haish pegila kau! sy mahu study nnt, 6 taun sgt lama... fokus2! mcm mn nk get rid this memory.. klau bleh masuk recycle bin pastu empty recycle bin tu kan senang..


*feel kind of silly coz' keep thinking of all this crap.. I should be calm.. I'm leaving... what more is left to be said?

:( b.o.s.a.n

CoNgRaTuLaTions DAMANHUR!

Damanhur a.k.a MEG3 is my class name in Intec .. hehe.. Eventhough our class is not as 'kecoh' as "some" classes (read MEG1) but we're happy aren't we? especially during our lunch trip together at Al- Diafah.. and our class role play together..oh.. not to mention the dinner at Chicken Rice Shop which I did not attend for some reasons...hihi..sorry ya! I admit that we all haven't really know each other well.. but.. It's a pleasure to know all of you~ I learnt a lot from this class and to my fellow dearest classmates.. All the best in Egypt.. (special wishes for Teng, Hakim and Ady.. for they will be in Ain Shams instead of Cairo Univ with all of us)



The results of my Final Exam are finally out.. and proudly I would say my class excels! yeah.. go for it damanhurians.. all of us manage to get 25 which is the highest point.. so.. everyone is flying with flying colours.. (haha.. so weird la this sentence) My result? hehe not bad la.. all A's, It's not what I expected as I thought I blew off my Biology paper.. huh.. Alhamdulillah I made it too..



Here are some pics of our not-so-kecoh class.. I present to you.. Members of Damanhur..

• Marzuki @ juki - Dedicated Class rep
• Engku - former class rep. turned MT
• Tengku- Big bro
• Ady - my role play partner.. sorry for always being a troublesome
• Hakim - forum partner.. sorry for the same cause
• Amirul- lil bro.. but always put ahead brilliant thoughts
• Kamil- oh, what can I say more.. kamil is kamil laa
• Azizul- tiqah said he's immatured.. but his responses says more about him..
• Haziq- you'll notice him around only when he laugh

The girls

• Nadhirah- Vice class rep. that founds out Upax brings about benefits to her ~_~
• Atiqah- Former vice class rep.. now dedicated MT and 24 hours is not enough for her :p
• Nisa'- for some reasons azizul fond to tease her.. makes me wonder~
• Syaimaa- watch out! this is not me.. my classmate duplicates my name loh.. now I have to introduce myself as Sya.. wueks!
• Iema- neighbour... and not to mention Head of my block~
• Nasywa- Sir Ishak said and I quote- 'aii..mcm mak org'
• Anah- hehe.. kucing hitam~ it's all I can say.. gila indie band!
• Zahidah- roomate a.k.a neighbour partner..

HAPPY TO BE PART OF IT!!

Entah Apa Apa

Ketidakadaan mood mmg penyakit seryes skang nih.. ingat ak sorg jek.. cik Nad pon same jew.. ada ka patut En "UK"~ tu kata blog ak bersawang~ ok pe.. ada gak post selang 2 hari.. mmg nak kena dia nih..

Memandangkan cik Tiqah dh cerita kes shopping dia.. so nk tulis gak la..(takleh mengalah nih!) Balik jek dr Intec bermalasan kat umah.. mmg tak sedar diri nk fly apa menda pon tak nk settlekan.. Sampaila mama start bercakap.. barulah nk sebok cari brg.. Dh mmg maklum kat Perlis ni nk beli brg mmg susah sket, so.. kenala gi sampai Alor Star.. Dr pagi sampai ptg mencari brg2.. bkn ak yg pilih pon... mcm mama ak plk yg nk fly.. "yg ni nak x?".. angguk .. "yg ni?" angguk lg.. haish..malasnya nk pilih apapa.. "erk..ma, amek jela apapa yg rs patut.. pastu suma mama pilih jela..along ok jew~" tak pasal dgn kuar statement tu kenala lecture free kat situ.. huhu.. "Ni sapa yg fly ni, mama ka along?!"

Dh kena sound camtu.. ak pon watla muka cam interested sket.. padahal dlm hati.. cepatla..nk balik! Time pilih2 kasut.. tetiba pedih lak perut.. kepala pon pening2.. duduk la kat tempat org try2 kasut.. mata mencari2 mana family ak lak ni.. haish dah hilang plk.. salesgirl kat tepi wat muka pelik je.. bdk ni pehal? wei! suka ati ak le.. sakit ni taw tak!? Last2 mama dtg bwk kasut.. tny ok ke tak? terus tak ckp bnyk angguk jelaa.. "err.. ma, balik jom! tak larat lg dh" so.. balikla..

Lepas insiden sakit kat Mall tu, dua mlm takleh tido.. sakit perut sgt2.. so.. esknya plan nk gi beli barang lg, jd plan gi jumpa Dr.. kena gastrik rupanya ak.. eish.. tak penah2..hehe ada gak alasan ak mls kuar umah gi beli brg.. nasib baik la bnyk yg dh siap.. klau tak susah gak.. Dh baik sket, kuar lg.. msuk td pagi dh 5 kali kuar masuk kedai.. bosan tol bab2 beli2 brg ni.. Dh la kepala asek penin2 ja (alasan malas kluar umah la tu senang ckp)

Akaun HSBC blom bukak lg.. baju raya belum cari lagi (ish.. tak yah jelaa bleh x? takde mood dh nk raya) brg eletrik nk kena cari gak.. hurmm adapter?? mana lg ak nk pegi beli ni.. oh tidak!! malas sudah nk keluar umah. Penyakit ikut mood ak ni mmg menjadi2.. entah apa prangai pon tak tau la.. dalam hati asek gelisah jek.. hurmm.. tanak fly?? eiii..dh cukup! melampau betul perangai.. Isnin ni gi Alor Star lg??? waaaa......

Tag oh Tag~

hehe.. dh lama virus tagging ni divaksinasikan oleh Prof. Anas.. tetiba ada balik~ kn lagi ak~ hehe buat ajela demi memikul amanah cik Iema neyh~ so merepek jela sepanjang zaman ak neyh ~_~

Apakah benda paling penting dlm hidup kamu?

Agama.. family.. akal yg waras

Apakah benda terakhir yg kamu beli dgn duit sendiri?

Kasut.. hee~

Dimanakah tempat perkahwinan impian kamu?

tepi pantai.. haha for sure bkn kat mesir kan? so balik sini la kawen kat umah jek

hehe

Berapa lama anda rasa hubungan anda berkekalan?

Ish.. klau dh kawen mesti nak sampai ke akhir hayat en?

Adakah anda dilamun cinta?

Entahlah.. cinta tu apa? tak kot, tersuka maybe :P

Dimanakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam?

erk..pizza hut tu kira restoran x? klau ye, haa tulaa

Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?

My secret

Apakah nama penuh anda?

Syaimaa' Binti Ahmad... ape neyh?

Kamu lebih senang dengan Mak atau Ayah?

kalau nak shopping senang dgn Mama, klau nk advice senang dgn Baba .. so dua2 la tu~

Namakan seseorang yg ingin anda jumpa utk pertama kali?

Nabi Muhammad S.A.W

Christina atau Britney?

dua2 x best

Adakah anda mencuci pakaian anda sendiri?

oh.. sorry to say memcuci is not my expertise~ hehe

Tempat paling seronok yg anda mahu pergi?

Mekah dan Europe

Pelukan atau ciuman?

dua2.. :P

8 perkara yg amat saya sukai

masak.. baca buku... bunga.. coklat

pantai.. kenangan dulu2.. shopping.. main bowling

7 perkataan yg sering diucapkan

ntah apapa.. mengader.. sengal.. malas r..suka ati dia jek.. haish dia ni..

nak kena bdk nih

7 buku yg saya baca??

aiii.. nk bagi satu pon susah.. last skali baca buku utk final exam aritu..pemalasnya~

8 lagu yg boleh dengar berulang kali..

takbrapa minat sgt.. dgr kejap2 boleh

8 perkara yg saya pelajari tahun lalu..

subjek medical laa kat intec...sabar.. kawan itu indah... jgn mudah percaya org..

family penting.... bawak keta jgn nak speeding jek..(kan dh takut).... jgn nilai org dr luaran..

skang waktu blaja ok, so jgn memain~

yeay!! dah siap.. berjaya gak akhirnya